It's Time to Change!!

“And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.” (Romans 12:2)

Change starts with you. It starts with the changing of your mind. You are what you think. What you think on a day to day basis is usually what you act upon. If you are always thinking about desires of the world then it is more than likely you will give in to the desires of the world.

People always think that you cannot change your mind, but this I know to be a lie. As a Christian makes their transition to walking with the Lord they must change the way they think. This is the key element to being saved and remaining saved. The enemy, our adversary is always going after our mind because he knows if he gets control of our mind then he has control over us. He is is going to try his hardest to push us towards evil and sin instead of good.


My dear friend that I love so much. I pray for you all of the time. I do not want to see you keep going down the same road. You can come out of the sinful lifestyle. I know you are tired of false happiness. The club, sex, drinking, smoking is not true happiness. That is temporary pleasure; a temporary moment. Its time for you to get an eternal mindset. We are temporary here on this earth and we must realize this. We are God's divine children so its time to stop being so caught up in this world. Its time for change my friend.. Its time!!

The joy that God can give you the world cannot. This is a known fact. No longer will you be waking up stress, waking up worrying, waking up thinking how are you going to make it through the day. You will wake up with praise on your lips and joy in your heart. Its time for you to kick the negativity out of your life. Its been wearing and tearing on you for way too long. Its time for you to be built back up and walk with the Lord!!

If you truly want to change then you will put forth the effort. One of the problems that you have is you do not fear the Lord. If you feared the Lord you would not be sinning out of control. I ask you this question.. If you were to die today, do you honestly think you would go to Heaven? By the way you live, by the way you talk and by your actions, do you honestly believe you should live in Heaven for eternity???

I am praying for you my friend!! Know just because you prayed a prayer and God into your life does not mean you are going to Heaven. <- This is a key step but it takes more than this. You have to live and walk up right before the Lord!

2 Corinthians 5:17
 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

Listen to my prayer.. It'll bless you!!

The Power of Prayer

Listen to God leading me in prayer. I promise you it will bless you! Amen!

Why Are You Not Living A Saved Lifestyle!!??

Take a second to yourself and ask yourself, "Why am I not living a life for God?" If you are truly living a life for God then ask yourself, "What can I do to win souls to God."

My friend it seems as though we have fallen short. We have taking a step back. We have allowed circumstances, test, trials, people, jobs, money, sex, drinking, smoking, partying to play a huge factor in our walk with God. We have put God aside and let things that are of the world take over our lives. How much longer will we continue to walk in sin when we know we belong to God? How much longer will we keep making excuses why we are not living a life for God? You know the excuse I am too young and I just want to have fun has run out! It is time to take up your cross and let your sinful ways go!

The number one distraction in our lives is *PLEASURE* Not even real pleasure but temporary pleasure. Do you not know that the pleasures of the world are temporary? Think about it.. When you go to smoke, you always go back for more. When you go to drink, you always go back for more. When you have sex, you always want some more. Why is this you may ask? These are temporary satisfying moments. They run out so you keep going back. They are tricks of the adversary. The devil tells you to do what you want, have as much fun as you can, sleep with whoever you want as many times as you want but where is this getting you in life.. No where!

Whenever sin takes place it bringeth forth death. This doesn’t have to be an actual death but it can be something bad. Lets look into this.. Say you have sex with someone and you two do not use a condom or say the condom breaks, then she gets pregnant. The day and age we live in now, what's become most common is the use of abortion(which is the killing of an unborn child). If sex had never taking place there would be no abortion. Who knows what you have possibly killed before it was born. We have become a slave unto sin and our sinful lifestyle is winning the battle over our spiritual lifestyle.

It is time to stop looking for a temporary fix. It is time to stop trying to take matters into your own hands. I tell you now from experience. If God is not in it then it is not going to work. For all of you that is unequally yoked, meaning one is saved and the other isn't, it is time to come up out of that relationship. It is not healthy and in the end it will lead to destruction. Even though its hard to let go of because deep feelings are involved it is the right thing to do. You have to trust God. He will not steer you wrong and He will find you another!

Our lives shouldn’t just consist of what can I do for pleasure and fun. Every weekend, looking for a club/party to roam, what to drink, who can I sleep with. This is not what our lives should be. There is a different lifestyle to live. You may say I am not ready, well I ask you this, when will you ever be ready? Do not wait for something bad to happen to turn your life to God. If you could get yourself ready for the change then you wouldn’t need God. Let God change you! He has ALL the power to give you the change and joy that you are looking for. You will not find the joy and happiness that God can give you in the streets.

Take time to seriously reflect on your life after reading this message and ask yourself, "What is holding me back from living a saved lifestyle?" See what needs/who needs to be let go of to walk on one accord with God. My friend it is time to go to higher grounds with God. God is waiting for you to knock so He can open the door. Will you come!?

2nd Chronicles 7:14
If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Next Chapter

Here I am again.. New path, another chapter approaching, almost time to flip the page. I thought I was use to this but this time it feels a little different. Feels like I flat lined.. I was on the incline. Climbing life’s ladder but with one bad decision, I don’t even matter.. Every time I think about the decision, it makes me “madder”.. Ey, it was meant to happen this way. Hmm, that’s what they tell you to believe. I feel like the decisions that we don’t make are sometimes the decisions that we should have made. It’s a confusing concept but if you think about it, makes perfect sense. Should of, would of, could of its all written in the book now. See, when you had the chance you didn’t, now that you want to you can’t. That’s life!

What to do now.. Looking in life’s mirror.. All I see is myself and my wealth.. Preparing for this next chapter, I have to go chase after! To be successful and chase a dream you must first wake up. You have to see the reality.. Can’t stay sleep and chase your dream. No time to be a sleeper. This is the moment that you have to appreciate the most; the day to day struggle, the sweat and tears, pushing pass your deepest fears. This is your time to figure out if you really love what you’re chasing after. This is what I keep telling myself but am I listening!?

Thinking I need to switch it up but the love will not let me go.. This is all I know so how can I just let it go!? In life there comes a time where you must embrace change. I always ponder on why life cannot go the way I want it to. I believe this is what we know to be a fantasy. Lord knows my life is far from that. Writing the lines on the last page but before I turn, there’s a question that sits on my heart. Should I fight or should I let it burn!?

The true reflection of my life is this.. Whenever I take matters into my own hands and stop letting God be the driver is when not so good outcomes occur. The moments when I sin and do not repent and keep repeating the sins that I know I shouldn’t be doing is when not so good outcomes occur. The moments when I keep holding on to the past and not living for the present is when not so good outcomes occur. God wants us to truly live for Him and make our decisions through Him.

When you are called and anointed by God you cannot live life like everyone else. Yes, a person living however they want to may look like they are having the time of their life, happy, but trust me they are missing something. If God is not the head of our lives then we will always be missing something. Once we accept Christ in our life, we must change and live a life for God. Yes, the Christian journey is a struggle and a fight. There will be many temptations that we must overcome but what we must understand is, fighting for Christ is the best fight one can fight. We have to live through God and for God; this is the only way our lives will flourish..

*Flips the page!*

God bless

A Way of Thought

Im thinking about the saved lifestyle. Im thinking about the saved walk. Im thinking about a saved woman. Im thinking about what it takes to be what it is God is calling me to be. Saved.. the meaning that's become demoralize in a new world generation that's on a new high. High off pleasure. They say whatever is flesh pleasing, I'll take that. Hmmm on another note don't let me get started with what folks doing up in the church house. Now that's a different story. But I'm still thinking about what it is to live saved. See I was once there. In front of the church with my hands held high. Proud to show everyone I was redeemed. But as proud as I was, I was talked about. People saying, oh congrats, I am happy for you one day and then the next day asking me if I want to party, drink, smoke and then the next day after that telling me I am brain washed.

They didn't know I was addicted to pleasure. They wasn't there when I inhaled it to my brain, gargled the hot water to take away the pain, felt what I felt; the skin that's softer than cotton. They wasn't there! This addiction that once controlled me. Oh... my Savior that found me. How could I not tell about Your greatness!?

I'm still thinking about being saved. Am I a great representation!? They say they will know them by their fruits. Am I a tree planted by the riverside or am I a tree surrounded by dry land!? Who's listening!? I still want to be saved...

So ya see, we're all searching. Looking for that one. Looking for some fun. Playing with fire and hoping to not get burned. Trying to do as much as we can before His return. A loss hope is the case that is at hand and the ultimate judge has the final say. So, how can you tell a person they are wrong for what they believe? How can you tell a person they aren't living right if you don't know their story? Why do we push people away, cut them with our words and judge?

All I been looking for is a push of encouragement but instead the ones close to me don't care if I slip back into the old me. Heck I think that's what they want. Crazy isn't it!? I turned my lifestyle around just to see the people around me frown!? Naw that can't be right..

Im not sure which hurts worse. Feeling like the world is accepting me or Christians rejecting me. Holding on to the side of the fence. All I need is a hand but people afraid to reach out, afraid to speak up. Sometimes yo brother need those sharp words to be cut up! If you love me then speak to me with the ultimate care and let me know by your actions that you are here. I seen people come and go, from the front pew to the back pew and right out the door. Stop them before its too late. All they need is a helping hand.. im just trying to be saved man...

"Farewell Pikeville.. On to the Next Chapter in Life"

For 20 years of my life, I had never heard of Pikeville. In fact, the first time I heard of it, I said to myself, "What the heck is a Pike(S)ville? Where is that even at?" In the summer of 2008, I was faced with a roadblock. Not knowing where to go to play basketball and finish my education I got on knees and put it in God's hands. In a matter of time I started to hear from different coaches. One of the first coaches and schools I talk to was Happy at Georgetown. Haa Can you imagine me at Georgetown instead of Pikeville? That’s a joke right. Anyhow I got in contact with another guy, and he happen to be Kelly Wells. I can tell from the first conversation that this guy was different. It was something about our conversations that instilled hope that this could be a good fit for me. On top of that Coach Wells and asst coach at the time Coach Riley drove 7 long hours up to good ol Michigan to watch me play in a summer league game. The day they were there I played good in my game and afterwards I still didn’t know what I wanted to do. Since I didn’t know what to do, Coach Wells ended up staying an extra night. He said he wasn’t leaving until he got me. I prayed real hard that night to God and the next morning I woke up and knew what I wanted to do. We all sat down in my house with my Mom and I ended up signing the papers to play for Pikeville. The excitement was all over Coach Wells face. I believe he may have done a Michael Jordan fist pump. Haa I knew that I had made the right decision without even ever checking out the campus or city of Pikeville. (crazy right) :P



Coming down to Pikeville in 2008 it was a different change for me. Surrounded by mountains, having terrible cell phone service, 4 restaurants to eat at and no mall in town I was a little shell shock. I thought to myself, how am I going to survive here two years. As time went on and I begin to meet more people the more comfortable I became. One thing I noticed about the campus and city of Pikeville everyone was so generous and nice. That’s a big change coming from up north. After time, Pikeville became my home away from home.



One of the main reasons I came to Pikeville was to play basketball. In my junior season I went on to being 2nd team All American and 1st team all conference with many other accolades. That season for me was remarkable. Coming from a Division 1 and leaving there on a bad note, I had something to prove. I believe I proved everything bit of what I needed to and then some. Going into my senior year of ball I tore 3 ligaments in my ankle. This really prevented me from playing at the level that I was once at. Not being able to play how I wanted I went into a semi depression. Many people didn’t know because I stayed positive on the outside but all along on the inside I was hurting. Somehow through all of the pain I manage to get through and leave my all on the floor but most importantly basketball landed me a college degree, so you know that made Momma proud! : )



Right before graduation I was offered a job opportunity to work at the college to be an Admissions Counselor. Wanting to continue my basketball career overseas but still plagued by injuries I felt like this could be a good opportunity for me. A job fresh out of college is hard to find these days. I prayed about it for about a month straight, talked it over with friends and family and a month and a half after graduation I was back on the hill. Another great thing with working at the college, I was able to play semi-pro basketball for the East Kentucky Energy in town so not only did I have a great job, I was also playing the game I love. Being an Admissions Counselor taught me a great deal of lessons. It brought into my life new responsibilities, decision making, learning how to be more precise, and definitely a great deal of patience. God opened a door way with this job and I have met some great students and people in one year. I am forever thankful for my co workers and the relationship(s) we built. This job done a lot for me and I am forever grateful for the experience. :)



It saddens me that my time in Pikeville has come to an end. I am very connected to this place. I've had some great times here and some bad times. I came here at the age of 20 and now 23, I have matured a lot. I know God led me here for a reason. I pray as I leave this place that the way I lived showed a representation of Christ. I know I could have been a better witness for God but I did the best I could. I always wanted to be a positive factor for everyone and I tried. One thing about me is I will life coach you and give you advice no matter if I know you or not or what time of the day or night. Funny thing is when I first got here and people begin to know about me, I use to hear, "hey that’s the Christian boy." That makes me smile because I always want to live a life for Christ and show others that they can too!



I have many great memories here and I will forever cherish them. Pikeville, you have been good to me and I am thankful for all of the people that I have connected to during my time here. It has been a real good pleasure being here. I ask that everyone stay in contact. I'm only a click away, search engine away on facebook. Don’t be afraid to write on my wall or say hello. I will miss you all!!!!!!



p.s. I will no longer have the 606 # so if you text or call I will not get it. God bless you and I wish you all nothing but much success in life!



Love,

Joshua "scotty" Samarco

"You Forgot!!"

(This is a message from God)

Its time for you to wake up!! I want you to see what has happened since you started living your own way and taking matters into your own hands. The truth is the battle started when you stopped coming to Me for everything and started going to the people in your life. You put man/woman over Me; your God! Whenever you try to do things on your own it never works out. Can you not see that? It may start off looking good, looking hopeful but in the end if I am not at the head of it, it shall fall.

Everything in your life that is not built around Me and focused on me will fail. Think about every foundation, relationship that you've built in life that I was not in, it has either failed, had miserable moments, ups and downs or fall outs. When I call you my own, I mean it. You are my child sent down from Heaven and I do not make mistakes. Your life is in divine order so when you start to go your own direction, I always have to send a road block your way to get your attention again.

The reason why you are going through what you are going through right now is because I am trying to bring you back to Me. You know the pain you are feeling right now is the way I feel every time you sin against Me. Its nothing new to Me. I get My heart broken every day but you know what I heal and forgive. I know what to expect from people. They are going to mess up but what gets Me the most and hurts Me the most is when they know better and still do wrong.

Life is much easier than what you have been making be. If you stick to your first mindset and keep your eyes on Me then you'll be fine. But you know you always think life has to be about you so you start making your own decisions for yourself. One day you'll realize that its not always about you and your feelings. You will have to sacrifice and endure for someone else. One thing that you need to focus on more is making the right decisions.

The poor decisions that has been made, how about we just wipe them away and start over. You know the saying, "joy comes in the morning," well that morning doesn’t necessarily have to be a time. It's whenever you decide to wake up from your current situation you are in. So let this message be your wake up call! Its time for you to come back into the mighty presence of the Lord!!

How much longer are you going to keep trying to do things your own way? You see it never gets you any where. So, how about you stop right where you are, pray to me, cry out, ask for forgiveness, repent and truly mean it, give your life back to me and get right.

The time is now and I am depending on you to be a voice for me. Let others see how I can change your life and make you into a Godly person instead of the sinful person that they know you to be. You will be life changing and powerful by the new way you walk and talk. I have all the confidence in the world in you. Now lets go on to greatness!

I love you!

Love,
God

"If my people, who are called by My name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land." -2nd Chronicles 7:14

"Where Am I??

Lost.. Lost up in the world. Lost up in the things that I shouldn't be caring about.. Worrying about.. What has happened to my strong mind? With time.. The evolution of man kind began to wear down on me. Those lonely Friday and Saturday nights in the house alone, no one there to pick up the phone besides the ones that’s looking for different clubs to roam. I was over that but this time I said to myself it will be a little different. I'll just take a seat in the club, no I'll just stand by the wall or post at the bar. Intertwined with two different worlds fighting in my mind I seen something walk across so gracious yet so fine. So, this time the gravitational pull got a little stronger and I told myself I don’t know if I can hold on much longer.

The battles and trials and the miles that I've walked can all be gone in one second, for a moment of pleasure. This life it is not fair. I never have fun anymore. All of my friends talk about me. They say, "you can still be saved and club." "You can still drink and go to Heaven." "You can have sex. I still do. All I ask God to do is forgive me." …… I listen to them but I know what's right. God saved me out of the darkness of the night. That Holy Ghost power leads me into making the right decision, but every time I sin I get weak with a blurry vision. Each test that I lose, a part of me dies, a part of me cries. I am trapped by what to do and what not to do, by what's wrong and what's right, by how much can I get away with and still be considered saved.

I have noticed that everyone I know wants to half way do it. They all think they can live the way they want to and make it to Heaven. Who is the fool here? The person that does what they want everyday and ask God for forgiveness before they go to sleep or the person that steps out on faith and tells of God's amazing grace? You see if you can hold on a little while longer, God will step in and make you stronger. If you can get through your everyday nights, God will give you the strength to fight. You will receive the power to say no but first you must sow.

Don't let your friends hold you back or stop you from living a life for God. Everyone that says they're a Christian and saved will not make it to Heaven but you my friend know what to do and can make it. Stay strong and on fire for the Lord. God has a special plan for you. Never forget it! God bless!

2 Peter 2:9 " The Lord does not delay His promise, as some understand delay, but is patient with you, not wanting any to perish, but all to come into repentance."

"I Will Wait For You" This powerful poem is a must see!!

God is going to work it out for you!!

Don't be afraid to say no. Don't be afraid to be by yourself. If you need alone time to get yourself right then my friend give yourself that. Don't allow yourself to latch on to another human for emotional support. God said, that is what I am here for. See you have allowed yourself to latch on to humans and you see where that has got you. So ask yourself this, "when is the last time I latched on to God??"

What you must understand my friend is God will never do you wrong. While you keep trying to figure out love and life on your own, God is already got it figured out. It is us who has lack of patience which causes us to go for what we know. Thus again we find out what we know is nothing at all. When we take matters into our own hands usually we come out hurting. When you put your all into the hands of God you come out smiling.

I've learned that God has a lesson for us all and through that lesson lies our blessing. See if you never went through anything then how could you grow? God said I allowed you to go through that so I could let you see what I saw. Ha how good is God? He allows us to go through things in life just to better our lives.

My friend, do not rush at all. It is in rushing where you miss out on building on key steps for your life and relationships. If God say its for you then it will be for you but in order for it to be for you, you must first walk up right with God. Never allow yourself to get in the way of what God is preparing for you. So step back for a change. Try something different. Don't always go for what you know. If you are scared then you are lacking faith. Have all the faith in the world and smile because God is working it out for you! Be blessed my friend!

Words of Wisdom

The time keeps ticking. And me, I'm no longer beating to my own drum. No longer do I do it my own way. Ha. That got me no where. Stuck in a hole with no one to dig me out. It all started with me. See the man is the head of everything and the woman reacts off of the man. Women are unstable when it comes to their feelings. They easily act off of their emotions. You have to work hard at keeping them happy but ya know if you make them feel special and make em feel as though they are the only girl on the planet then you'll never have any worries. That's the key; putting in the work to make em feel special. If you do what it takes you will not have any breaks. If you want that relationship to go how it started then you have to put in the work. Do not hold back. When God places something on your heart to say, do, then you have to do it. Step up to the plate and give your best swing. You might not hit a home run but if you get to 1st base then that's progress. You'll make your way around to home plate. Just play it smart and make great decisions and you'll be fine. Life is about learning from all of your failures and mistakes. You'll be a liar to say you never failed or never made mistakes. We all have. Its a part of life. What you have to do is apply to your life what you've learned and you'll become a much wiser person. Keep getting better. Life is all about progression and being the best that you can be. Stay real!

Scotty

Man... I Cant do this Anymore.. I give up!!

These words picture the page. I sit in rage. Mad from the outcome. Am I still saved? Ah, I look around. Arms strapped across my body. Man, I done went insane. This time I acted out of anger. So regretful. In that moment I was so hateful. They ask me, "What was you thinking back there?" They must didn’t see  what I saw. I fought to change but still things stayed the same. People still judged, people still hated, people betrayed, no one getting saved, no encouragement just a bunch of debates. Was everything I was doing wrong? They act like the way I was living was a sad song. I did it all for you. Laid my life down for my friends. Still none of em changed. What did I not show them enough to believe in the One? Its been 6 years and still they're trapped. Doing the same routine on the same map. Now I done back fired. Walked up in there with a drink in my hand. "What are you doing?"

I'm rocking to the beat. Is something wrong, is my outfit to neat? I thought this was the place to be. So then tell me why it's all eyes on me? "Hey aren't you the guy that sends out those notes on facebook?" "Hey are you MrMotivation25 from twitter?" I keep it moving. I got my cup in my hand, two step; I'm just grooving. I'm trying to have me a good time. Sip..Sip.. "Man this some good wine." Looks like I'm apart of the crowd this time. Done being on the mic. No one hears me any way. This is good bye today.

So I take her home. Looks like I found me a good one. Me and her, we going to go at it all night to her favorite song. I think this is the life. Back at it baby tell me where to stop. Dang I was missing out. All those college parties. All of those hotties. What was I thinking Scotty?? I should have been living it up. Shoot everyone believes their saved and going to heaven anyway. I should have been joined this party. Club after club, drink after drink. I guess I didn’t think.. It really don’t take all of that to be saved. Hey I can just ask God for forgiveness and He'll forgive me.

Everyday living. A lot of sinning. Sometimes talking to God. Doing what I want. Messing with whoever I can. Thinking that I am the man. That’s what its all about right. "PLEASURE!!"- Doing whatever we want and asking for forgiveness at the end of the day. This is what we have come to. For one second if you thought I have stopped living and being on fire for God then this note did what it had to do. FOOL YOU! Because this is what the devil is doing. Fooling you! Will you come out of your sinful lifestyle or will you keep doing whatever you want? The choice is in your hands. Remember tomorrow is not promised and life is too short so what shall you do? My friend its time to get saved, be baptized, and start living right! I am praying for you. Keep praying for me. God has something special in store. Do you believe???

What a Love!

I want to fall so deep. Deep in love. I want to dive to the bottom of the sea. Find your treasure chest and unlock it with the key, of your heart. Our love doesn't have to be hidden. Trust me our past doesn't even matter; its forgiven. Let's go where we always dreamed of. To our fantasies. Others don't think real love exist so they diss. But you my Miss. Soon to be my Mrs. I see something for real. This isn't some original ordeal where we date to break and break to re date. This is God given love. Sent down from only the Heaven above. Its an angel and it's guardian cording together on love cords.

Listen to the music play. This is our song. *You by Jesse Powell* We're dancing. The moment so slow but so perfect. Your eyes full of the joyous tears. I wipe em away and tell you we overcame our deepest fears. We took a leap of faith. We didn't play it safe. *The record is still spinning.* All eyes on us as we both blush. Everything we thought it would be plus some more. Oh does heaven adore. They dance with us. Those pearly gates are shining down upon us. We are on one accord. Hook together for ever. *Ting ting ting.* We kiss. A Holy bliss. "Thank you God for my perfect gift!" I say to you as you spin gracefully in my arms. I never knew a love like this exist. Now I see that all those times on my knees that it was you I was praying for.

They all doubted. "Hey baby, did you see the way they all shouted?" As we walked down the aisle. It was as if we floated. Those 5 seconds felt like 5 days. Slow moment. We captured fear. We put it in the rear. Not did we just talk the talk. We walked. No longer bound to temptations. Now free to express the love that is so strong. So this honey moon. Whew!! its going to be so heavenly. Let's live as if we are the only two on earth for a week. Let us seek. Go above and beyond. Get it heated but not get so hot that something gets to cooking in the oven. Okay I'm done talking, let's get to the loving! ;)

Deep In My Sin God Snatched Me Out!!!

Deep in my sin.. The devil had me pacing.. I fell for it again.. I thought I was done.. Have I been tricked? I just wanted to have a little fun.. Why is it that, what's bad has to feel so good? If it feels good, shouldn’t it be right? Who am I to question.. I already know the answer.. Just playing dumb.. This is no rule of thumb.. I am living beneath my means.. Not in between but on the wrong side.. Now I am feeling ashamed; time to hide.. Deep.. Deep into the sea of pity.. Trapped inside a city.. Full of a lustful eye, heartaches and cry.. I needed something to heal the pain.. So, as I take a hit of the mary jane.. I maintain.. Its steady chasing me.. The past of an evil eye.. Steadily trying to kill this evil guy.. The smoke hasn’t cleared.. Its like the same thing.. Year after year..

I have fallen.. Fallen so deep.. Deep.. Deep away.. Cast into the darkness of the day.. See, when the lights out I am fine.. It is late at night that gets me every time.. The demons come ah creeping.. Sex and drugs come ah peeking.. Peeking right into my sight.. Its not even a temptation when I dive right in.. Cant call me a fish if I don’t have a fin.. So, I sink.. Sink right to the bottom.. When I wake up its like I hear the devil say, "I already got em" I know I need help.. But what's the point of asking for help if I'm not going to change.. Now I'm just sitting here feeling crazy and derange..

Im young.. But how much longer can I keep using this as an excuse to keep living how I want? I said by the time I got to the age I am at now that I wouldn’t be living the same.. Looks like I'm doing the same thing.. Hmm pretty much insane because I'm getting the same results.. This is a life long test.. I know I'm not passing.. Because I'm not giving my best.. When its all said it done.. When they lay me down to rest.. What will my legacy be? What will I be remembered by.. A smoker? A cheater? A liar? An alcoholic? A back stabber? Fake? Back Slider?

One step away from my darkness turning into day.. I been praying.. But at the same time I just been saying.. Just talking and not enough walking.. So, here I am on these bended knees.. Reaching out for Your Holy hand.. All I need is one lift this time.. I wont make a promise that I will not sin.. But I will make a promise that I will give you my all until the end.. Here I am friend.. Laying down my life for real this time.. Because this time could be the last time and if it’s the last time then it’s the right time.. Its time to stay right.. Day and night I am putting up my fight.. Holy Ghost protect me.. Grace comfort me.. Mercy forgive me.. God you're all I have.. Thank you for putting me back on the right path!!!!

"Let Me Testify!!!"

"For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes" -Romans 1:16

People ask why do I always say God this and God that. Well it was a time where I couldn’t stop saying let me smoke this and let me drink that. There was a point in time where I fell into worldly pleasures. I'm sure all of us have giving into something that we said we would never do. Growing up, and being a basketball player I said I would never smoke or drink. By the time I was 15 I had given into both. Am I ashamed of my past, no I am not. Everything I've been through led me to become the person I am today. Always remember ever saint has a past and every sinner has a future but the decision is up to you to come out of your sinful lifestyle.

On March 8th, 2011 will be 6 years since I went down in Jesus name and got saved. Has it been the easiest walk, no it hasn’t but I am here to tell you, I am a new creature in Christ Jesus. I no longer talk the same, I no longer walk the same, I no longer go to the places I use to go to, I no longer do the sinful acts that I use to do.  Have I slipped up and made mistakes? Yes, I have. Its all apart of growing as a Christian. You learn from your mistakes and bad decisions.

You cannot let your friends discourage you in your walk with Christ. Many times I have seen and I have been through discouragement from friends. A true friend encourages their friends new walk with God, not pick at them and make fun at them. When someone changes their life and get saved, friends seem to say stuff like, you are boring, you can go to the club and still be saved, it doesn’t take all of that to be saved, you can still drink, God will forgive you and etc.. You have to block what others say and keep on fighting for the Lord because it does take all of that to make it to Heaven!

I am far from perfect but God knows I am worth it. That is why He chose me to come out of darkness and into His marvelous light. I am not living for my glory but I am living for His glory. I couldn’t have changed and stop doing the sins that I was doing by myself. Jesus did it! He paid the ultimate price and filled me with  His Spirit. Hallelujah!

What I want you to know is He will do the same for you as He did for me! You have to step out on faith. I remember before I got saved, I was questioning whether it was the right move or not. My faith was low but I was at a stage where I wanted complete joy and I wanted to fill a whole that was missing. So, I stepped out on faith and allowed God to come into my life. I haven't been the same since. = ) All of the praise belongs to God. I pray that you allow God to do the same in your life.

God Bless you my friend!

"Therefore, if any man is in Christ, he is a new creature; old things are passed away, behold all things are become new." 2 Corinthians 5:17

Prayer

"Feel the Positive Vibe"

Woke up this morning.. Feeling quite brand new.. I believe that prayer from last night went through.. The tears ran down.. My heart beat slow.. The silence was overdrawn by His presence.. The moment was the release I'd had been waiting for.. You know when you knock, and knock, and knock.. Soon to find the person you been waiting for open the door.. What joy it is to have your dead weight uplifted.. Mind shifted.. Negative -> Positive.. Climbing even higher now.. The power of the sow.. I needed this you know.. Overcoming my deepest fears.. Learning from my mistakes over the years.. Life's lessons brings the greatest of all my blessings.. The road of faith.. His grace keeps me safe.. The battle is not given to the swift or the strong, but to the one that makes it to the end of the race.. Its not where you started but its where you end up.. No one can go back and start a new beginning.. But you can make up in your mind that you will change.. And I promise you that decision will give you a new ending.. As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.. Strive to be the best that you can be.. Let no one tell you that you cant be the best.. Determine in your mind that you will be different from the rest.. You were born to stand out, not fit in.. You belong on stage rocking the mic, not in the crowd. You are called and hand picked by God him self.. Rubies and gold cannot define your wealth.. That is why you shine the brightest amongst everyone else ; )

God bless!

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"Operation Kill MY Flesh"

 "I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily." - 1st Corinthians 15:31

Its 10 days into 2011 and I bet you have already lost some battles that you said you weren't going to lose; You made some resolutions that you have already giving in to. You might feel as though your year is going to be a bad year because of the decisions you have already made but I am here to tell you that the devil is a lie!

You cannot let a few days into the new year determine the rest of the year. Yeah you might have took another drink, smoked again, went back to the club, slept with an ex or old friend but you know; if you are reading this letter then you still can be forgiven. Do you know why you haven't got over your sinful ways?? Its because you have not receive total deliverance and allowed God into your life 100%.

You cannot hold on to old feelings, old people, old environments and expect yourself to not fall into temptation. You have to admit that you are weak and your relationship with God is not where it needs to be. Yeah you said you were going to make a lot of changes going into 2011; but you cannot change until your mindset changes and you have to have enough faith to take a leap into a new direction.

You have to realize what you are lacking/where you are lacking to step into the new YOU. If you really want 2011 to be your year then you are going to have to sacrifice and put up a fight. Stop making excuses for yourself, saying that you aren't strong enough to change or let go, or your life is a living hell so it doesn’t matter. Yes, it does matter my friend.

You are a child of God. Stop listening to the negative people in your life. You do not have to put up with negativity. The drama lifestyle isn't a lifestyle that you should be living. You shouldn’t have to fight and argue everyday. That is not love. So, my friend it is time to KILL the old YOU and YOUR past!! Let it go! I know its easier said than done but how much longer are you going to keep putting up with the same thing?? Its old news!! Be made brand new!!

If you truly want better then you will do better. To kill your flesh is to put it under subjection, to gain a will power, to fight and trust that God will supply your every need. Get rid of the emotional draining attachments. Come out of that dreadful pain. Feel refresh and new. I want you to be able to breathe again and smile knowing that everything is going to be alright. = )

My friend, God loves you and so do I. I am praying for you and I ask that you do the same for me. I am in this fight with you. My life isnt all glamorous or easy but I am not dwelling on my problems. I am giving my all to fixing them with the amazing help of my Saviour Jesus Christ. Lets keep moving forward. This is our year!!

P.U.S.H.- Pray. Until. Something. Happens.

"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service." -Romans 12:1

Break Loose!!!!!!!!

You are bound for greatness but you have to believe it. Even if you cannot see it right now you still have to believe it. "FAITH"-- Even though you cannot see it right now, does not mean you can't believe it to come to pass. Take off your blinders and put on your FAITH shades. It is easier to see with your FAITH shades on then it is to look with the natural eye. Looking with the natural eye causes doubts because you focus on the obstacles in front of you but looking through the FAITH shades you see how you can get through the obstacles.

You might be in a situation right now that you think you cannot get out of but I am here to tell you that there is a way out. It does not matter what the case may be. God will make a way of escape for you. You might be thinking to yourself how did I get myself in this situation or I am in this situation to deep but that still doesn’t matter because God will go in deeper to get you out.

What you need to realize is God isn't the one that got you in the mess you are in. He gave you other options and routes to take but you decided to take your own route and look where you ended up; no where, stuck in your mess. But listen to this, it is not to late to come out of your mess. You ought to get excited about that. Yes, you have made some mistakes, yes you have made some bad decisions but I am here to tell you that YOU can turn your situation around.

BREAK LOOSE!!! Repeat that in your head over and over and tie it to your situations and the mess you are in. BREAK LOOSE!!! BREAK LOOSE from it all! Aren't you tired of going through the same things over and over? Feeling the same pain, crying the same tears? If you are tired and fed up then do something about it. Where we go wrong is we ask God for help but then we just sit there. We have to get up and move! We have to meet God and bring the same intensity that He is bringing. BREAK LOOSE my friend BREAK LOOSE!!!

Greater is He that is in me than he that is of the world. You can do any in everything that you set out to do and be set free from. Never let anyone tell you any different. You are born and destined with a purpose and GREATNESS should be the definition of who you are. Strive for the best, separate your self from the rest! Its time for you to get out of your mess and give YOUR ALL to God and live blessed.

Keep on P.U.S.H.ing --> Praying. Until. Something. Happens.

God Bless!!!

What Are You Building Your Relationship On?

All relationships are built around something. The foundation of a relationship is the most important factor to heading into a good direction. Where the foundation is weak; the more you build, will not be beneficial. Think about if a building has a weak foundation.  The higher and bigger the building becomes the more risk that building will have of falling over and collapsing. The same goes for our relationships. The more we build upon the bad things, the more chances we give for it all to fall apart. Every relationship has to be built around something.

If your relationship is built around sex, then I'm going to tell you now that you are headed down a dangerous road. Sex is meant to be shared by a husband and his wife. Pre-marital sex does nothing but cause problems. First of all, if you can find someone that loves you for who you are without the sex then more than likely you have found the right person because everyone cant be in a relationship without sex. People are immature and believe in their minds that sex has to be in the picture but I am here to tell you it doesn’t.

If you can stimulate a persons mind and be intimate with them without sex then you are headed towards a great relationship. The sex will come, you just have to be patient. I once heard someone say I will wait to have "blessed sex." Not trying to be funny but think about the love you gain with someone/ for someone along your relationship path. So just imagine falling in love without sex. By the time you are married and on your honey moon, that experience will be amazing. Something that you cant describe unless you have went through it.

We have truly lost the principles and values of what a relationship should be built on. Too many people are building their relationships on the wrong things, such as lies, dishonesty, no true love, sneaking around, not being real, sex, and etc.. If we can get back to relying on what is right, our relationships will last and we wont have to stress. We make life and relationships harder than what they should be.
 

The Bible tells us that "true love never fails." Love is meant to be kind and not cause any problems. We allow ourselves, our old ways, our selfishness, our past to all get in the way of our love and we wonder why love never works out for us. It is not God who it causing the problems, it is us. Until you can fix yourself and get right with God, you will never be able to fully make it work with someone else.

We have to build our relationship around God. Without Him first and the head of our life then the relationship will never amount to anything. You have to be able to talk about God with your lover, pray together, go to church together, praise and worship together, cry tears of joy together. We have to have God in our relationship at all times. We have to love God more than we love each other then His love will be shed upon our relationships.

It is time to correct the problems in our lives and in our relationship. We can truly have greatness in our life but we have to be willing to step back and allow God to work on us. We have to seek Him like never before so He can show us all of our faults, mistakes and weaknesses. God said, "He will give you the desires of your heart." If you truly believe it then you will allow Him to manifest in your life. Keep striving for perfection and greatness!

God Bless!