Man... I Cant do this Anymore.. I give up!!

These words picture the page. I sit in rage. Mad from the outcome. Am I still saved? Ah, I look around. Arms strapped across my body. Man, I done went insane. This time I acted out of anger. So regretful. In that moment I was so hateful. They ask me, "What was you thinking back there?" They must didn’t see  what I saw. I fought to change but still things stayed the same. People still judged, people still hated, people betrayed, no one getting saved, no encouragement just a bunch of debates. Was everything I was doing wrong? They act like the way I was living was a sad song. I did it all for you. Laid my life down for my friends. Still none of em changed. What did I not show them enough to believe in the One? Its been 6 years and still they're trapped. Doing the same routine on the same map. Now I done back fired. Walked up in there with a drink in my hand. "What are you doing?"

I'm rocking to the beat. Is something wrong, is my outfit to neat? I thought this was the place to be. So then tell me why it's all eyes on me? "Hey aren't you the guy that sends out those notes on facebook?" "Hey are you MrMotivation25 from twitter?" I keep it moving. I got my cup in my hand, two step; I'm just grooving. I'm trying to have me a good time. Sip..Sip.. "Man this some good wine." Looks like I'm apart of the crowd this time. Done being on the mic. No one hears me any way. This is good bye today.

So I take her home. Looks like I found me a good one. Me and her, we going to go at it all night to her favorite song. I think this is the life. Back at it baby tell me where to stop. Dang I was missing out. All those college parties. All of those hotties. What was I thinking Scotty?? I should have been living it up. Shoot everyone believes their saved and going to heaven anyway. I should have been joined this party. Club after club, drink after drink. I guess I didn’t think.. It really don’t take all of that to be saved. Hey I can just ask God for forgiveness and He'll forgive me.

Everyday living. A lot of sinning. Sometimes talking to God. Doing what I want. Messing with whoever I can. Thinking that I am the man. That’s what its all about right. "PLEASURE!!"- Doing whatever we want and asking for forgiveness at the end of the day. This is what we have come to. For one second if you thought I have stopped living and being on fire for God then this note did what it had to do. FOOL YOU! Because this is what the devil is doing. Fooling you! Will you come out of your sinful lifestyle or will you keep doing whatever you want? The choice is in your hands. Remember tomorrow is not promised and life is too short so what shall you do? My friend its time to get saved, be baptized, and start living right! I am praying for you. Keep praying for me. God has something special in store. Do you believe???