Lost.. Lost up in the world. Lost up in the things that I shouldn't be caring about.. Worrying about.. What has happened to my strong mind? With time.. The evolution of man kind began to wear down on me. Those lonely Friday and Saturday nights in the house alone, no one there to pick up the phone besides the ones that’s looking for different clubs to roam. I was over that but this time I said to myself it will be a little different. I'll just take a seat in the club, no I'll just stand by the wall or post at the bar. Intertwined with two different worlds fighting in my mind I seen something walk across so gracious yet so fine. So, this time the gravitational pull got a little stronger and I told myself I don’t know if I can hold on much longer.
The battles and trials and the miles that I've walked can all be gone in one second, for a moment of pleasure. This life it is not fair. I never have fun anymore. All of my friends talk about me. They say, "you can still be saved and club." "You can still drink and go to Heaven." "You can have sex. I still do. All I ask God to do is forgive me." …… I listen to them but I know what's right. God saved me out of the darkness of the night. That Holy Ghost power leads me into making the right decision, but every time I sin I get weak with a blurry vision. Each test that I lose, a part of me dies, a part of me cries. I am trapped by what to do and what not to do, by what's wrong and what's right, by how much can I get away with and still be considered saved.
I have noticed that everyone I know wants to half way do it. They all think they can live the way they want to and make it to Heaven. Who is the fool here? The person that does what they want everyday and ask God for forgiveness before they go to sleep or the person that steps out on faith and tells of God's amazing grace? You see if you can hold on a little while longer, God will step in and make you stronger. If you can get through your everyday nights, God will give you the strength to fight. You will receive the power to say no but first you must sow.
Don't let your friends hold you back or stop you from living a life for God. Everyone that says they're a Christian and saved will not make it to Heaven but you my friend know what to do and can make it. Stay strong and on fire for the Lord. God has a special plan for you. Never forget it! God bless!
2 Peter 2:9 " The Lord does not delay His promise, as some understand delay, but is patient with you, not wanting any to perish, but all to come into repentance."
