Next Chapter

Here I am again.. New path, another chapter approaching, almost time to flip the page. I thought I was use to this but this time it feels a little different. Feels like I flat lined.. I was on the incline. Climbing life’s ladder but with one bad decision, I don’t even matter.. Every time I think about the decision, it makes me “madder”.. Ey, it was meant to happen this way. Hmm, that’s what they tell you to believe. I feel like the decisions that we don’t make are sometimes the decisions that we should have made. It’s a confusing concept but if you think about it, makes perfect sense. Should of, would of, could of its all written in the book now. See, when you had the chance you didn’t, now that you want to you can’t. That’s life!

What to do now.. Looking in life’s mirror.. All I see is myself and my wealth.. Preparing for this next chapter, I have to go chase after! To be successful and chase a dream you must first wake up. You have to see the reality.. Can’t stay sleep and chase your dream. No time to be a sleeper. This is the moment that you have to appreciate the most; the day to day struggle, the sweat and tears, pushing pass your deepest fears. This is your time to figure out if you really love what you’re chasing after. This is what I keep telling myself but am I listening!?

Thinking I need to switch it up but the love will not let me go.. This is all I know so how can I just let it go!? In life there comes a time where you must embrace change. I always ponder on why life cannot go the way I want it to. I believe this is what we know to be a fantasy. Lord knows my life is far from that. Writing the lines on the last page but before I turn, there’s a question that sits on my heart. Should I fight or should I let it burn!?

The true reflection of my life is this.. Whenever I take matters into my own hands and stop letting God be the driver is when not so good outcomes occur. The moments when I sin and do not repent and keep repeating the sins that I know I shouldn’t be doing is when not so good outcomes occur. The moments when I keep holding on to the past and not living for the present is when not so good outcomes occur. God wants us to truly live for Him and make our decisions through Him.

When you are called and anointed by God you cannot live life like everyone else. Yes, a person living however they want to may look like they are having the time of their life, happy, but trust me they are missing something. If God is not the head of our lives then we will always be missing something. Once we accept Christ in our life, we must change and live a life for God. Yes, the Christian journey is a struggle and a fight. There will be many temptations that we must overcome but what we must understand is, fighting for Christ is the best fight one can fight. We have to live through God and for God; this is the only way our lives will flourish..

*Flips the page!*

God bless