"Where Am I??

Lost.. Lost up in the world. Lost up in the things that I shouldn't be caring about.. Worrying about.. What has happened to my strong mind? With time.. The evolution of man kind began to wear down on me. Those lonely Friday and Saturday nights in the house alone, no one there to pick up the phone besides the ones that’s looking for different clubs to roam. I was over that but this time I said to myself it will be a little different. I'll just take a seat in the club, no I'll just stand by the wall or post at the bar. Intertwined with two different worlds fighting in my mind I seen something walk across so gracious yet so fine. So, this time the gravitational pull got a little stronger and I told myself I don’t know if I can hold on much longer.

The battles and trials and the miles that I've walked can all be gone in one second, for a moment of pleasure. This life it is not fair. I never have fun anymore. All of my friends talk about me. They say, "you can still be saved and club." "You can still drink and go to Heaven." "You can have sex. I still do. All I ask God to do is forgive me." …… I listen to them but I know what's right. God saved me out of the darkness of the night. That Holy Ghost power leads me into making the right decision, but every time I sin I get weak with a blurry vision. Each test that I lose, a part of me dies, a part of me cries. I am trapped by what to do and what not to do, by what's wrong and what's right, by how much can I get away with and still be considered saved.

I have noticed that everyone I know wants to half way do it. They all think they can live the way they want to and make it to Heaven. Who is the fool here? The person that does what they want everyday and ask God for forgiveness before they go to sleep or the person that steps out on faith and tells of God's amazing grace? You see if you can hold on a little while longer, God will step in and make you stronger. If you can get through your everyday nights, God will give you the strength to fight. You will receive the power to say no but first you must sow.

Don't let your friends hold you back or stop you from living a life for God. Everyone that says they're a Christian and saved will not make it to Heaven but you my friend know what to do and can make it. Stay strong and on fire for the Lord. God has a special plan for you. Never forget it! God bless!

2 Peter 2:9 " The Lord does not delay His promise, as some understand delay, but is patient with you, not wanting any to perish, but all to come into repentance."

"I Will Wait For You" This powerful poem is a must see!!

God is going to work it out for you!!

Don't be afraid to say no. Don't be afraid to be by yourself. If you need alone time to get yourself right then my friend give yourself that. Don't allow yourself to latch on to another human for emotional support. God said, that is what I am here for. See you have allowed yourself to latch on to humans and you see where that has got you. So ask yourself this, "when is the last time I latched on to God??"

What you must understand my friend is God will never do you wrong. While you keep trying to figure out love and life on your own, God is already got it figured out. It is us who has lack of patience which causes us to go for what we know. Thus again we find out what we know is nothing at all. When we take matters into our own hands usually we come out hurting. When you put your all into the hands of God you come out smiling.

I've learned that God has a lesson for us all and through that lesson lies our blessing. See if you never went through anything then how could you grow? God said I allowed you to go through that so I could let you see what I saw. Ha how good is God? He allows us to go through things in life just to better our lives.

My friend, do not rush at all. It is in rushing where you miss out on building on key steps for your life and relationships. If God say its for you then it will be for you but in order for it to be for you, you must first walk up right with God. Never allow yourself to get in the way of what God is preparing for you. So step back for a change. Try something different. Don't always go for what you know. If you are scared then you are lacking faith. Have all the faith in the world and smile because God is working it out for you! Be blessed my friend!

Words of Wisdom

The time keeps ticking. And me, I'm no longer beating to my own drum. No longer do I do it my own way. Ha. That got me no where. Stuck in a hole with no one to dig me out. It all started with me. See the man is the head of everything and the woman reacts off of the man. Women are unstable when it comes to their feelings. They easily act off of their emotions. You have to work hard at keeping them happy but ya know if you make them feel special and make em feel as though they are the only girl on the planet then you'll never have any worries. That's the key; putting in the work to make em feel special. If you do what it takes you will not have any breaks. If you want that relationship to go how it started then you have to put in the work. Do not hold back. When God places something on your heart to say, do, then you have to do it. Step up to the plate and give your best swing. You might not hit a home run but if you get to 1st base then that's progress. You'll make your way around to home plate. Just play it smart and make great decisions and you'll be fine. Life is about learning from all of your failures and mistakes. You'll be a liar to say you never failed or never made mistakes. We all have. Its a part of life. What you have to do is apply to your life what you've learned and you'll become a much wiser person. Keep getting better. Life is all about progression and being the best that you can be. Stay real!

Scotty