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Friday, February 11, 2011

Deep In My Sin God Snatched Me Out!!!

Deep in my sin.. The devil had me pacing.. I fell for it again.. I thought I was done.. Have I been tricked? I just wanted to have a little fun.. Why is it that, what's bad has to feel so good? If it feels good, shouldn’t it be right? Who am I to question.. I already know the answer.. Just playing dumb.. This is no rule of thumb.. I am living beneath my means.. Not in between but on the wrong side.. Now I am feeling ashamed; time to hide.. Deep.. Deep into the sea of pity.. Trapped inside a city.. Full of a lustful eye, heartaches and cry.. I needed something to heal the pain.. So, as I take a hit of the mary jane.. I maintain.. Its steady chasing me.. The past of an evil eye.. Steadily trying to kill this evil guy.. The smoke hasn’t cleared.. Its like the same thing.. Year after year..

I have fallen.. Fallen so deep.. Deep.. Deep away.. Cast into the darkness of the day.. See, when the lights out I am fine.. It is late at night that gets me every time.. The demons come ah creeping.. Sex and drugs come ah peeking.. Peeking right into my sight.. Its not even a temptation when I dive right in.. Cant call me a fish if I don’t have a fin.. So, I sink.. Sink right to the bottom.. When I wake up its like I hear the devil say, "I already got em" I know I need help.. But what's the point of asking for help if I'm not going to change.. Now I'm just sitting here feeling crazy and derange..

Im young.. But how much longer can I keep using this as an excuse to keep living how I want? I said by the time I got to the age I am at now that I wouldn’t be living the same.. Looks like I'm doing the same thing.. Hmm pretty much insane because I'm getting the same results.. This is a life long test.. I know I'm not passing.. Because I'm not giving my best.. When its all said it done.. When they lay me down to rest.. What will my legacy be? What will I be remembered by.. A smoker? A cheater? A liar? An alcoholic? A back stabber? Fake? Back Slider?

One step away from my darkness turning into day.. I been praying.. But at the same time I just been saying.. Just talking and not enough walking.. So, here I am on these bended knees.. Reaching out for Your Holy hand.. All I need is one lift this time.. I wont make a promise that I will not sin.. But I will make a promise that I will give you my all until the end.. Here I am friend.. Laying down my life for real this time.. Because this time could be the last time and if it’s the last time then it’s the right time.. Its time to stay right.. Day and night I am putting up my fight.. Holy Ghost protect me.. Grace comfort me.. Mercy forgive me.. God you're all I have.. Thank you for putting me back on the right path!!!!

Friday, January 21, 2011

"Let Me Testify!!!"

"For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes" -Romans 1:16

People ask why do I always say God this and God that. Well it was a time where I couldn’t stop saying let me smoke this and let me drink that. There was a point in time where I fell into worldly pleasures. I'm sure all of us have giving into something that we said we would never do. Growing up, and being a basketball player I said I would never smoke or drink. By the time I was 15 I had given into both. Am I ashamed of my past, no I am not. Everything I've been through led me to become the person I am today. Always remember ever saint has a past and every sinner has a future but the decision is up to you to come out of your sinful lifestyle.

On March 8th, 2011 will be 6 years since I went down in Jesus name and got saved. Has it been the easiest walk, no it hasn’t but I am here to tell you, I am a new creature in Christ Jesus. I no longer talk the same, I no longer walk the same, I no longer go to the places I use to go to, I no longer do the sinful acts that I use to do.  Have I slipped up and made mistakes? Yes, I have. Its all apart of growing as a Christian. You learn from your mistakes and bad decisions.

You cannot let your friends discourage you in your walk with Christ. Many times I have seen and I have been through discouragement from friends. A true friend encourages their friends new walk with God, not pick at them and make fun at them. When someone changes their life and get saved, friends seem to say stuff like, you are boring, you can go to the club and still be saved, it doesn’t take all of that to be saved, you can still drink, God will forgive you and etc.. You have to block what others say and keep on fighting for the Lord because it does take all of that to make it to Heaven!

I am far from perfect but God knows I am worth it. That is why He chose me to come out of darkness and into His marvelous light. I am not living for my glory but I am living for His glory. I couldn’t have changed and stop doing the sins that I was doing by myself. Jesus did it! He paid the ultimate price and filled me with  His Spirit. Hallelujah!

What I want you to know is He will do the same for you as He did for me! You have to step out on faith. I remember before I got saved, I was questioning whether it was the right move or not. My faith was low but I was at a stage where I wanted complete joy and I wanted to fill a whole that was missing. So, I stepped out on faith and allowed God to come into my life. I haven't been the same since. = ) All of the praise belongs to God. I pray that you allow God to do the same in your life.

God Bless you my friend!

"Therefore, if any man is in Christ, he is a new creature; old things are passed away, behold all things are become new." 2 Corinthians 5:17

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Prayer

"Feel the Positive Vibe"

Woke up this morning.. Feeling quite brand new.. I believe that prayer from last night went through.. The tears ran down.. My heart beat slow.. The silence was overdrawn by His presence.. The moment was the release I'd had been waiting for.. You know when you knock, and knock, and knock.. Soon to find the person you been waiting for open the door.. What joy it is to have your dead weight uplifted.. Mind shifted.. Negative -> Positive.. Climbing even higher now.. The power of the sow.. I needed this you know.. Overcoming my deepest fears.. Learning from my mistakes over the years.. Life's lessons brings the greatest of all my blessings.. The road of faith.. His grace keeps me safe.. The battle is not given to the swift or the strong, but to the one that makes it to the end of the race.. Its not where you started but its where you end up.. No one can go back and start a new beginning.. But you can make up in your mind that you will change.. And I promise you that decision will give you a new ending.. As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.. Strive to be the best that you can be.. Let no one tell you that you cant be the best.. Determine in your mind that you will be different from the rest.. You were born to stand out, not fit in.. You belong on stage rocking the mic, not in the crowd. You are called and hand picked by God him self.. Rubies and gold cannot define your wealth.. That is why you shine the brightest amongst everyone else ; )

God bless!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

"Operation Kill MY Flesh"

 "I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily." - 1st Corinthians 15:31

Its 10 days into 2011 and I bet you have already lost some battles that you said you weren't going to lose; You made some resolutions that you have already giving in to. You might feel as though your year is going to be a bad year because of the decisions you have already made but I am here to tell you that the devil is a lie!

You cannot let a few days into the new year determine the rest of the year. Yeah you might have took another drink, smoked again, went back to the club, slept with an ex or old friend but you know; if you are reading this letter then you still can be forgiven. Do you know why you haven't got over your sinful ways?? Its because you have not receive total deliverance and allowed God into your life 100%.

You cannot hold on to old feelings, old people, old environments and expect yourself to not fall into temptation. You have to admit that you are weak and your relationship with God is not where it needs to be. Yeah you said you were going to make a lot of changes going into 2011; but you cannot change until your mindset changes and you have to have enough faith to take a leap into a new direction.

You have to realize what you are lacking/where you are lacking to step into the new YOU. If you really want 2011 to be your year then you are going to have to sacrifice and put up a fight. Stop making excuses for yourself, saying that you aren't strong enough to change or let go, or your life is a living hell so it doesn’t matter. Yes, it does matter my friend.

You are a child of God. Stop listening to the negative people in your life. You do not have to put up with negativity. The drama lifestyle isn't a lifestyle that you should be living. You shouldn’t have to fight and argue everyday. That is not love. So, my friend it is time to KILL the old YOU and YOUR past!! Let it go! I know its easier said than done but how much longer are you going to keep putting up with the same thing?? Its old news!! Be made brand new!!

If you truly want better then you will do better. To kill your flesh is to put it under subjection, to gain a will power, to fight and trust that God will supply your every need. Get rid of the emotional draining attachments. Come out of that dreadful pain. Feel refresh and new. I want you to be able to breathe again and smile knowing that everything is going to be alright. = )

My friend, God loves you and so do I. I am praying for you and I ask that you do the same for me. I am in this fight with you. My life isnt all glamorous or easy but I am not dwelling on my problems. I am giving my all to fixing them with the amazing help of my Saviour Jesus Christ. Lets keep moving forward. This is our year!!

P.U.S.H.- Pray. Until. Something. Happens.

"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service." -Romans 12:1

Friday, January 7, 2011

Break Loose!!!!!!!!

You are bound for greatness but you have to believe it. Even if you cannot see it right now you still have to believe it. "FAITH"-- Even though you cannot see it right now, does not mean you can't believe it to come to pass. Take off your blinders and put on your FAITH shades. It is easier to see with your FAITH shades on then it is to look with the natural eye. Looking with the natural eye causes doubts because you focus on the obstacles in front of you but looking through the FAITH shades you see how you can get through the obstacles.

You might be in a situation right now that you think you cannot get out of but I am here to tell you that there is a way out. It does not matter what the case may be. God will make a way of escape for you. You might be thinking to yourself how did I get myself in this situation or I am in this situation to deep but that still doesn’t matter because God will go in deeper to get you out.

What you need to realize is God isn't the one that got you in the mess you are in. He gave you other options and routes to take but you decided to take your own route and look where you ended up; no where, stuck in your mess. But listen to this, it is not to late to come out of your mess. You ought to get excited about that. Yes, you have made some mistakes, yes you have made some bad decisions but I am here to tell you that YOU can turn your situation around.

BREAK LOOSE!!! Repeat that in your head over and over and tie it to your situations and the mess you are in. BREAK LOOSE!!! BREAK LOOSE from it all! Aren't you tired of going through the same things over and over? Feeling the same pain, crying the same tears? If you are tired and fed up then do something about it. Where we go wrong is we ask God for help but then we just sit there. We have to get up and move! We have to meet God and bring the same intensity that He is bringing. BREAK LOOSE my friend BREAK LOOSE!!!

Greater is He that is in me than he that is of the world. You can do any in everything that you set out to do and be set free from. Never let anyone tell you any different. You are born and destined with a purpose and GREATNESS should be the definition of who you are. Strive for the best, separate your self from the rest! Its time for you to get out of your mess and give YOUR ALL to God and live blessed.

Keep on P.U.S.H.ing --> Praying. Until. Something. Happens.

God Bless!!!